First Chapter

Well, I have officially gotten through the first chapter of the book, and I have to say it knows me well. The last part of the chapter hit me hard! It was talking about setting rules for yourself and then breaking them. The example she gave was you go to the store and promise yourself you aren't going to buy your favorite binge snack. But you do, then you promise yourself you won't open the bag until you get home, but then you put it on your lap in the car, but promise yourself you'll only have 3, but then you stop at a light, and have four more and continue until they are gone. Then you see your favorite fast food drive thru and decide to get something for yourself since you are so disappointed in failing to follow your rules. But you promise yourself that you are only going to get a quarter pound burger nothing else, by the time you order you've changed it to a half pounder, large fries, coke and a shake. This just continues until you get so depressed that you continue eating and eating. I can't say that this exact thing at the store has happened, but I do know plenty about setting rules for myself and then breaking them. Especially when eating out! I always promise myself that I'll only get something that is healthy, but by the time I'm actually ordering I don't even know what happens but I'm ordering a combo meal and a shake or something similar. It is craziness that I don't have control over what is coming out of my mouth when 2 minutes ago I had promised myself that I wouldn't order the usual crap. The assignment that I'm excited to do during this chapter is about cravings. She says to keep a small notebook on you or a piece of paper and just record your cravings using the following-time of day that it happened-length of time that it lasted-strength of the craving on a scale of 1-10, what happened to trigger the craving and what feeling you had during the craving. You are suppose to record this information for the next 24 hours.....so here we go!

Introduction

Okay, so I'm scared to have this as a public blog but I need to put myself out there and admit to more than just myself that I have a problem. So, recently I have been trying everything under the sun to lose weight and become more self confident. Unfortunately, nothing has worked, I just crave food so much and of course it's not healthy food that I'm craving. So I was thinking about it and decided to do a little bit of research on food addictions. I found a book called Anatomy of a Food Addiction by Anne Katherine. I am very excited but also saddened at the same time. I have to come to realize that to a point that food is controlling me! I look at people that are addicted to smoking, or other habits that are harmful to you and I've said to myself before, why can't they just stop? They see the facts they know that it's killing them so why don't they just stop. Well, I have a whole new respect for any kind of addict because I know it is harder than HECK to "just stop" as I so simply put it. In the book it talks about how some foods have chemicals in them that are just like drugs. They cloud your judgement, they give you hangovers and huge mood swings. So, throughout this blog I'm going to take you on my journey of overcoming this addiction. I know I have hurt myself and loved ones and even my future family by having this addiction and I plan on kicking it in the but and never looking back.